Merry Christmas!

Munich street, Germany.

Some people are meant to fall in love with each other but not meant to be together :(

Okay, I'm back from Malaysia. So many things happened that I really feel like posting but I don't wanna let anyone to know about it. Hell, what happened to me? But seriously it's meaningless to write things that you really wanna write down but you cannot let anyone to know. Argh, seriously sick of you WTF. Damn secret! I'm going to write it out today !?!

Sometimes, you think you've gotten over a person, but when you see him smile, you suddenly realize you're just pretending you're over him to ease the pain of knowing that he will never be yours. Seriously, I hate to say so, but it's the fact! In every girl who looks so happy with all those smiles and laughter, there's this guy who made her so good in pretending. I had been like smiling for so many days, weeks, months and whatever! What a awesome guy that makes me feel like this. SIAO. So, stop asking who's that guy, cause if you know me well, you should know it. If not, den just don't ask!

Since AUGUST! August till now, end of December! Smiling but close to tears is always what I'd felt. Tired but what can I do? I assume that it's just what you have been doing for years, so you were used to it, but I'm not. People always tell me the different things and made me think that there's something wrong between us! And not only me, everyone feels the same too. But one day, noticed actually there's just a big, nope a huge river between us, everything changed! Changed to something that I don't wanna be. Yea, we're back to normal, friends or even just a hello-bye friend. That's seriously sucks. It's exactly the same as what people always say, the feelings of being fall from the heaven to hell. ARGHHHH!

It's Christmas night, and I'm writing such post. Sorry about it, due to going back to Malaysia, it'd delayed to date for me to post it. So I have to post it with my Christmas post! So MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE OF THE WORLD! I'd spent my Christmas eve well I think. But at least I get to drink? Something that I cannot do in Singapore with my family members. Thanks Adam for it.

Holidays is normal, met my darlingg mun a night that actually I almost told her everything that I had been thinking of, she helps alot seriously what great bestfriend. And she did well. I'd released almost all of my stress-ness and get back to what I'm exactly right after I saw her that night. Calling make sense, but looking at her makes me feel that I can be such a good friend of someone too, gonna work hard for it.

Nothing special to post about actually, I don't wanna say much. Enjoy, merry Christmas again.

PS: I ♥ my fake smile. But it's tiring to do so.

PPS: I love you and I will never let you go.
words I that I still want to hear from him…

Meichyi~