polariod was fun

LOL..de first pic we take..hahas..de nicer 1..

hahas..de same pose with wanli..hahas

today Polaroid was fun..whoohuu..we didn't waste alot of films like ytd..but it is still fun..hahas..there will be lot to go after MYE..ahahas

today we sat for our Chinese and English paper 1 for MYE..wow..dont ask me that can i pass for my English anymore kay..i dunno how to reply..but i think today i did well??hahas..nvm

should i go to ipoh or puchong??go ipoh means can go puchong for few hours..go puchong means i cannot go back this weekend..haizzz..

meichyi~

updated

finally..i think i had solved 1 of my serious prob that surrounded me for quite a long time..now..den second most important is that i need to try my best to solve my family prob..but some one keep saying that i don't care of it..i don't know what i can say..but i really tried..how I'm going to stay with a person that betrayed this family 1st..you all have to think for me..you all wanted me to help you all in this and that..but pls lahh..you have to think of me 1st right???i don't know how to makes things go smoother so that everything wont so hurt for me..mum promised me not to divorce but dad makes such a decision that i don't know what i can do cause dad dunno that i had alr know everything.

wanted to give up on this family..but i cant..cause i know i wont feel happy without this family..but why???adults will always said that it is adults things so children please don't bother..i dunno is it that it's a excuse for them or for us???we cannot don't care right??doesn't involved us??den wth do you 2 give birth to me??and put me in this family for??

i hate it..i dunno what i can do..i annoyed me for quite a long time..

mummy and daddy didn't talk for = 10 days

meichyi~


从这里开始，我想跟你们说说我真的心情

pandamun：

我到现在才发现你那时的心情到底是这么样的。父母的变化，家庭的变化。但是我还是不明白你是这么有那股勇气接受父母的变化。开始不在爸爸面前说起妈妈。以前，我都不回为你们想想，在你们面前都说着我的家庭多么的完美。现在当我看到旁边的人，有着那么完美的家庭，我到开始想要哭了。总是在想，为什么事情会变成这样？是我的错还是什么？我真的不知道。怎么办？

爸爸：
我知道你一定不会看到这个。但是我还是想要问你，你为什么会变成这样？看到妈妈不曾为你这样哭过，你不会难过吗？你是怎样面对我们的？在我们面前，总是摆出什么事多没发生过一样？你不会心痛吗？是我们不够让你觉得骄傲，还是我们不曾让你真心的笑过？7年前，妈妈为了这个家，付出的一切都是为了你，就那么的一句活，不管三七二十一的，到处在办法帮你。现在你对妈妈做的，算是什么回报？当初，发过誓的承诺都忘了吗？这五年你都是怎么过的？我试着不管那么多，想要保持像现在一样，可是，事情发生了，我还能怎样？你会不会不出一声就走了？我真的很怕，很怕。不要这样好吗？一个从每天都笑的家，变成了每天都哭的家，你真的都不管了吗？为了让你感到骄傲，我试过很多方法，现在，我累了，真的。就你那么一句，够了，那么的难吗？要你放弃一个女人，有那么的难吗？你觉悟的吗？身为小孩的我们？不曾问过你，男人真的需要两个女人吗？还是一个完整的家？每次，看到你跟妈妈说话，我都会在想，这次，你说的是真的吗？你放弃了吗？还是，你还在说谎？事情变成这样，你都不难过吗？我在学着成长，学着装没事，其实最累了，当我清楚很多事，哭了也没用!就你的一句，我最爱的家，会不会解散就看你了。是时候醒醒了，那个5年的女人，值得你放弃一个20年都不曾离开过你的女人吗？我和姐姐不是你最骄傲的吗？在我心里的问号，要到几时才能够知道答案？10天了，你都不会想念妈妈那温柔的声音吗？你不会想念那位你不顾一生，不求回报的人吗？可以打个妈妈了吗？我想念你们每天在一起笑的声音？一起握着那永远不分开的手，让我看多50年不为难吧？我很爱你们！不要分开好吗？我试着不要哭。但是我真的忍不住。爸爸，回来爱我好吗？我真的需要你！妈妈还在等你！

TIRED

I'm vvv tired..you make a story book for me..and force me to finish it everything.

skip

i had learn something today..is not to care too much..so that i wont hurt too much..i heard some one said something that hurt me alot today..but just pretend nothing happened cause i dun like her too..no point of being angry because of someone that doesn't worth anything.

meichyi~

i really hate some one that wanna pretend that she is so good in everything and wanted to show off actually..i dunno what she is thinking..she wrote a lot of stupid things ion her facebook like how good she is..she only provide happiness to everyone but she didn't even think of what she had did and make me feel vvv uncomfortable.

blog updated

ok..finally blog updated..everyone started so scold me due to my blog had died for long period of time..

ok..actually lot of things i wanna share today..but i dunno it's good or i can finish it by 1 post..hahas

school was like normal for de past few days..everyone was good and wanli treat me btr den last time..is it means that everything settle??hahas..i also dunno..but everyone will change..i only hope that i still can maintain de normal 1 and everyone will like it..i didn't went to school today..due to im sick again..went to look for de doctor at je..actually i hope to take a full body check up..but daddy look like too busy and grandma was following..so...like that lohh..

mye is coming..i haven even start revising any subjects..cause i think I'm giving up for my n-level..really..i know where is my level at and i know i dun think i can make it for my English..so i think it's btr for me to go ite and not stress myself in wwss..i still can learn lot of others things in ite...is just wasting time..


ok..de most irritating prob meet now is my family prob..daddy and mummy has serious prob and i dunno what i can do..pissed off with it..ok..speechless..i dunno what i can say to this family anymore..i hate everything beside me that make me felt annoyed..

had to stay back after school for rehearsal of awards day this sat..have to take my "best in Chinese" awards..so had to stay back..wish me good luck and everything will be okay cause i dun have any friend beside me and i dunno can i make it by myself..so be brave!!

my sis is coming out in June..i think it's ok for her to study in SIM so wish her good luck lohh..she is always btr then me in studying..

ARGH!!!!i really hate myself..why should i place myself in this condition????Can i just walk away???

there are too many things that i have to handle it.everyone can lives in a happy world and hope for a btr one on de next day.but mine is always getting worst and even worst de next day..god is unfair to me!

meichyi~

happy , sad ? or both..

trying to solve a prob..but why the same prob wont end.i feel like wanted to give up..cause you wont understand how hurt I'm when i saw this happened again