spending my time to redo or called copy all de notes again that mdm rozi give for history today to let me had a change to memorize as well..but things actually started at here..wanted to revised history..and i duno what de meaning of some words..sudd feel like wanna find a dictionary to look up for de meanings of de words..
and i found this 1st..
i know it look quite dirty..but it is not..is jus de words getting lighter..but inside is still full of feeling and meaning..
okay..actually this post should post on last year..but i having had a blog cause of de com..
this actually is a book that my m'sia best best fren that wrote their feeling to me when i decided to come to Singapore for study suddenly..i read de book again and again jus now...tears falling like river.."泪流成河"..
it looks nothing special for others ppl..but actually it vvv meaningful for me..err..actually i wanted to reply to everyone that wrote it to me..but i think it is really too long..i dun mind but u all will read till die die xia..
okay..de 1st who wrote is darlinng mun..and it looks like......
i duno she will let me write all de things out anot..but i think is okay..cause this is our real friendships..and is de 1 that makes me cry too..
she wrote....
darlingg!!!you went back to Singapore!left us in a sudden!what the*censored* laa!I believe that you're very happy right?to tell the truth...i'm not happy at all!!cause i'm selfish or self-centered person!I dont want you to leave!but...i cant do anything...what i can do is to write you a letter or whatever laa xD you damn kanasai lurhs!i love you so much har..so sayang you har you... you... treat me like this?!? why! hmph...you owe mw JJ's concert ticket!muahahaha...or you want to gimme a kiss xD not bad weih!if you got another darlingg / dear tell me kay? i will rush to Singapore and chop him into pieces! just joking laa..by the way, you got miss me moh?i wanted to tell you that i miss you so so so much! that yong jie ah..damn bad! he asked me :" eh..meichyi 不再了哦，想念他吗？" walao eh! at that moment, i feel like slapping him lorhs xD i damn miss you d,trying to forget you d (haa just joking) ... he suddenly tell me this...wakao.. can i try to write in Chinese ah? my Chinese hor getting worst leh...i felt so sorry xD cause i didn't put Lot's effort, well that's me! lazy panda
"我想告诉你...我不想你...笑着难过自我惩罚!想终止这一切挣扎换了心说真心谎花..."
[must remember]
"在黑暗的对面是光明"
i write damn long right?you must take extra good care of this book kay?cause there wont be another one d...hope you will appreciate everything in your life kay?take good care of yourself!drink more water!visit us more ofter ya..or sometimes i will go to Singapore and visit JJ's shop SMUDGE! and i wont forget you too...you dont forgot me ah...if not... ngek~ngek~i think i should stop crapping around...i would like to give other people a chance to write longer messages...hee!see i damn kind (ss...ss...xD) kay stop here ba...see you darlingg!xoxo^^(hugs and kisses)..
LOL..what a long and vvv straight forward messages to me ya..when i read de messages that she read to me..i can feel what de feeling happening if i was de 1 with them too..i know it is a vvv sad case seeing their best fren leave them without any discussing in advanced..but you all know that it will happen..but i really doesn't mean to leave m'sia so fast..im not happy at all when i know that I'm going to go Singapore that time..i had jus received a letter from de moe that called me to go westwood to have a test during de march holidays..and i dun know that i will get into de school..cause of lot of things have to do..so i extended de time in Singapore to buy those books and so on..wheni reached m'sia it is alr friday..and school reopen on de next mon..it is vvv rush for me..so i cant meet you all de last time..so i really didnt mean it..
and still got 1 more..i duno i can read it or not..casue it is really damn damn longgg...is from mayhan..
everyone knows that han actually is a vvv straight forward person too..so can write long long paragraph to you and makes ppl fell deeply into what she said..
err..okay..she started..
今天是2009年3月26日,婆婆回了怡保,自己独自在家,觉得很害怕加上下大雨!如果你在的话我就不怕了,因为有你陪嘛...哈哈...我感觉到你回了新加玻你很开心,相信你对这次的决择没有一丝的后悔和不满...可能对你而言,离开这份伤心地对你回比较好过...喂,告诉你,我房间油了青色的漆叻!假期回来你一定要来过目阿!哎...少了你那把声音感觉蛮奇怪的...其实讲明点就是=想念你啦!(真的)你回了新加玻,上华语班贾雯就没有人陪他做了,不过你放心,我会代替你的职位,好好的照顾她,尽量不让他感到寂寞...哈哈...
这几天,我变得很冷静,不知道为什么我不再是以前的我了...算有进步吧!哈哈...希望你能够跟我一样都有在改变啦...
人长大了,眼泪好像真的干了,对"人情冷暖"都没感觉了,认真地可以为了自己的利益,为了目的,不择手段,人为什么要戴着面具来过生活呢?为什么不能拿出泥真实的那一面来对待别人呢?(我一时感触啦~)...的球不会因为某个人累了而停止自传...希望我们俩都能坚强的生活下去~我们的路还有很多关要闯,失败了无所谓,爬起来,在跌倒,再爬起来!没有事情是我们做不到的,只看我们有没有那颗心去完成它,克服它!天大的事,天塌下来都有我撑着,...T.T每个人的心都不是完整的,一定是受过创伤,有疤痕,或有着一个不玩真的旋律,要看自己如何去痊愈他,就算自己心里有多痛,都不要在别人面前显露出来,我们要坚强~爱情路上失败了又怎样,世界上还有很多i男人等着我们去爱对不对?呵呵...
不要害怕被伤害,要勇敢地去爱,"死了都要爱"...哈哈...
其实有你们这般朋友,我真的感到很开心,就算以前我跟你有什么误会,跟贾雯吵架都好,我选着忘记...因为有今生没来世...琪,你可以打印我你也能做到这一点吗?当粉笔字一样抹掉他,从此以后不存在你的记忆中...只容许开心的事情存档在你的记忆中...
感谢老天让我认识到你们...朝夕相处才发现这世界中,没有人比你们跟懂我,朋友,姐妹都已不够来形容我们的默契,骄傲,扶持与包容...老婆,老婆我们一起打勾勾,请记得我们的约定旅程到永久!
如果你感到寂寞,找不到贾雯,可以找我啊,我随时on call...哈哈..
唉,我还有许多东西发表叻,请你能允许我再向你吐苦水,花多你少少的时间来读完它~呵呵..
其实写到这里,我都还没有告诉你我是谁,不过相信你因该知道我是谁吧~
其实有时候,当我自己一个人的时候,我会想很多,为什么我没有一个完整的家庭,会钻牛角尖,说已我讨厌独处的时候,真的很讨厌,每当我独个儿时候,比如冲凉啊,做功课的时候啊,都一定要开歌听,来避免自己去想太多...唉...辛苦啊...
不过不过,我还是会坚强地走下去,不会个别人看不起我的!
其实有时候,我们在语言中或行为上不小心伤害到了朋友,我们不知道.
他们躲起来哭,我们不知道.
他们为我们祈祷,我们不知道.
现在,我身为你的朋友,我真的感到一万分的歉意,假如我有做到哪一点伤害到你.
普通朋友没有看过你哭,真正朋友有肩膀让你哭.
普通朋友会带着礼物参加你的生日派对,真正胖友会早点去帮忙你打扫而晚归.
普通朋友会讨厌你在他睡觉了后打给他,真正朋友会问你发生什么事?
普通朋友会讨论你有什么苦难,真正朋友会帮你解决困难.
普通朋友拜访会像客人一样,真正朋友会打开冰箱拿自己要的东西.
普通朋友会在吵架后忘了友谊,真正朋友明白当我们还没吵架就不会叫真正的朋友和友谊.
累了,我的肩膀让你靠!(不过我在马来西亚窝~哈哈...)心情不好,想一下我搞笑的样子!你受委屈了,我来安慰你!有我在,安啦!
为你的快乐而快乐这才叫做朋友真正的朋友宾不是在一起就有聊不完的话题,而是在一起,就算不说话也不会尴尬而快乐的感觉;朋友,就是被你看透了还能别你喜欢和接受的人才算是"好朋友"!(有意思吧!)
写着写着,现在已经是午夜12.24分了,心里有受不完的话,真的很难要在这短短的一个小时呢想你尽量诉完藏心底的话,一言难尽啊~所以你要多打电话回来给我呀!
我需要你在我迷失方向的时候把我拉回现实生活中,需要你在我钻牛角尖的时候,在我身旁开导我,(哦,不是,是在电话里)
珍惜你,不奢望你会给我什么会应,只希望...你心中留个小小的位置,好让我这朋友住下!不会很久,就这一辈子.....
很久没有写那么长的信和那么久的华语字,错字连连,不好意思呀!
希望你在失落,迷失方向的时候能够拿出这本书来翻看一下,这可能会帮你找到新方向,在继续你的路程哦...
这本书内可藏着不小的魔力哦!所以必须时不时拿出来翻看啊!
12.36分了,就此搁笔了!我知道你不会忘记我的拉^^
涵 2009-03-26
wow..what a vv long messages..i duno what actually their feeling are..writing this such thing(i means things that will make me cry whole night)to me..of course wont forget everyone..i know m'sia passport is damn exp..i didnt think be4 that u all will come out and find me often..so i really will go back and look of u all..keep in touch kay..it is quite late alr..i erally ahve to sleep alr..thanks everyone that give me such good memorise.. love you all..things and feeling will not changes..alt we are so far away..i know u all will treat me like we are in de same place..everything didnr changed be4 right..
meichyi~
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