"I just want to show you; she don't even know you..she's NEVER gonna love you like I want too."
Friday, December 3, 2010
Thursday, December 2, 2010
my imperfect family.
"Love is a net that catches hearts like a fish."
Does anyone there knows how its feel when your most beloved father scold you like he didn't even treat you as his daughter? blogging while crying. I thought I won't do this forever after everything had settle months ago. And too bad, there is always problems around me that won't get solved.
I don't mind blog it out or even say it out LOUD AND CLEAR that my dad had changed since 2 years ago. And it's such a super bad things that I did realised it by myself. Before he changed, everything is like so wonderful so perfect for me. When I know friends around me doesn't have a perfect family like me, I will always think that my dad is not the same as theirs. When I'm still young, mummy and daddy will always hold theirs hand, laugh, smile at each others no matter what. But things changed after my dad came out to work few years ago. It's not ashamed to admit that I'm living in a imperfect family now. It's not only I know about this, even wenqi who didn't even give a damn to this family also think that we're in such a situation now. Nobody will knows how it feels when your perfect family just "BOMB" and then only left with a father, a mother and a sister just like that.
I'm in a daddy so called "good-daddy" situation for almost 2 years. Yeah, and it's just like my dad went oversea, left me alone at home without anything. Only dinner time can meet dad for awhile, sometimes even can't due to his so called meeting and go out for pub and china girls. Out for whole day also didn't even ask about anything. Study like hell and say I'm just doing my part without any concern. Hey, this my beloved dad. I'm still doing my part till today.
What makes you think so that you deserve my respect after you treat me this way? Bought a phone, help you to get a contract, throw me alone at home, help you to transfer your contacts, you went for pool, starvation at home, find you, not in the mood to leave so early, mcd back home with sis, you reached home, without 1 word and started to scold and ask why I'm not helping you about the contact things? You didn't even ask about why I'm eating mcd instead of waiting for you, you didn't even care why I'm that unusually not talking and laughing, and you just scolded me without even look at how many contacts had help you to key in. Hey, I did told you that I don't know which should I put in. A full contact list with more than 100 plus numbers, with lots of same names but different numbers, some with 2 or more 8 digits number with 7 numbers are the same and 1 not. So what number should I key in? What names should I use? I don't even know your friends. And I swear I did key in more than 30 to 40 contact within 2 hours. AND YOU DARE TO SCOLD ME THAT WAY.
Want me to apologise? Too bad, the first time I won't do that to you. The first time I think that what I did was correct and you're wrong. What makes you think that your brother have the rights to push me? To scold me? Hey, I didn't even do anything wrong. You drunk and you think you can did that you me? You're just my uncle, a failure uncle that don't even gain any respect in the family. Not to be rude, but this is what everyone saying. Truth doesn't lies. And I won't be respecting anyone of this uncle's family all after this, your son, your daughter? get out from me, I won't be helping anything.
I hate the way you use that mouth that lips that always say you love, you care to those china girls and after that say it to me. That's seriously disgusting. You're the 1 who make this family become like this and you don't let me say it in front of you? Face the facts that you already did it!
MEICHYI.
Does anyone there knows how its feel when your most beloved father scold you like he didn't even treat you as his daughter? blogging while crying. I thought I won't do this forever after everything had settle months ago. And too bad, there is always problems around me that won't get solved.
I don't mind blog it out or even say it out LOUD AND CLEAR that my dad had changed since 2 years ago. And it's such a super bad things that I did realised it by myself. Before he changed, everything is like so wonderful so perfect for me. When I know friends around me doesn't have a perfect family like me, I will always think that my dad is not the same as theirs. When I'm still young, mummy and daddy will always hold theirs hand, laugh, smile at each others no matter what. But things changed after my dad came out to work few years ago. It's not ashamed to admit that I'm living in a imperfect family now. It's not only I know about this, even wenqi who didn't even give a damn to this family also think that we're in such a situation now. Nobody will knows how it feels when your perfect family just "BOMB" and then only left with a father, a mother and a sister just like that.
I'm in a daddy so called "good-daddy" situation for almost 2 years. Yeah, and it's just like my dad went oversea, left me alone at home without anything. Only dinner time can meet dad for awhile, sometimes even can't due to his so called meeting and go out for pub and china girls. Out for whole day also didn't even ask about anything. Study like hell and say I'm just doing my part without any concern. Hey, this my beloved dad. I'm still doing my part till today.
What makes you think so that you deserve my respect after you treat me this way? Bought a phone, help you to get a contract, throw me alone at home, help you to transfer your contacts, you went for pool, starvation at home, find you, not in the mood to leave so early, mcd back home with sis, you reached home, without 1 word and started to scold and ask why I'm not helping you about the contact things? You didn't even ask about why I'm eating mcd instead of waiting for you, you didn't even care why I'm that unusually not talking and laughing, and you just scolded me without even look at how many contacts had help you to key in. Hey, I did told you that I don't know which should I put in. A full contact list with more than 100 plus numbers, with lots of same names but different numbers, some with 2 or more 8 digits number with 7 numbers are the same and 1 not. So what number should I key in? What names should I use? I don't even know your friends. And I swear I did key in more than 30 to 40 contact within 2 hours. AND YOU DARE TO SCOLD ME THAT WAY.
Want me to apologise? Too bad, the first time I won't do that to you. The first time I think that what I did was correct and you're wrong. What makes you think that your brother have the rights to push me? To scold me? Hey, I didn't even do anything wrong. You drunk and you think you can did that you me? You're just my uncle, a failure uncle that don't even gain any respect in the family. Not to be rude, but this is what everyone saying. Truth doesn't lies. And I won't be respecting anyone of this uncle's family all after this, your son, your daughter? get out from me, I won't be helping anything.
I hate the way you use that mouth that lips that always say you love, you care to those china girls and after that say it to me. That's seriously disgusting. You're the 1 who make this family become like this and you don't let me say it in front of you? Face the facts that you already did it!
MEICHYI.
Daddy's phone.
But at the end of the day, the only one I wanna talk to is you...♥
Arrr. Daddy bought a new handphone, and he promised me earlier that says he will buy me my Iphone first. T.T *cry* Haiii, nvm la. Let him get his Nokia N8 first, so that when I wanna buy a Iphone he will get it for me. Tahan for 2 more weeks, and he will buy me a Iphone without quarreling. HOHOHO, does it sounds nice? YEAH! Darlingg mun's phone had just kena stolen today by don't know which stupid fellow! People are all having papers in the exam rooms and why are there still people walking around outside their classrooms? Luckily mun is going to get a Iphone soon, if not seriously, I will cry with her.
Oh, Twitter and Facebook are currently flooded. Hahahas, love the way chatting with my darlingg in public places, cause she will get addicted cause to reply all my stupid msges. HAHHAS, funny panda. My sis recently addicted in going out with her uni friends. And my mummy recently addicted in going out everyday for no reason. HELL, I'm addicted in what? IDK, so in the end, I always stone in my room ans in front of the comp. LOL -_________- pity me.
1 month earlier, I miss school alot. NOW? Hell, can school don't reopen so fast? I now only started to enjoy. T.T
meichyi~
Arrr. Daddy bought a new handphone, and he promised me earlier that says he will buy me my Iphone first. T.T *cry* Haiii, nvm la. Let him get his Nokia N8 first, so that when I wanna buy a Iphone he will get it for me. Tahan for 2 more weeks, and he will buy me a Iphone without quarreling. HOHOHO, does it sounds nice? YEAH! Darlingg mun's phone had just kena stolen today by don't know which stupid fellow! People are all having papers in the exam rooms and why are there still people walking around outside their classrooms? Luckily mun is going to get a Iphone soon, if not seriously, I will cry with her.
Oh, Twitter and Facebook are currently flooded. Hahahas, love the way chatting with my darlingg in public places, cause she will get addicted cause to reply all my stupid msges. HAHHAS, funny panda. My sis recently addicted in going out with her uni friends. And my mummy recently addicted in going out everyday for no reason. HELL, I'm addicted in what? IDK, so in the end, I always stone in my room ans in front of the comp. LOL -_________- pity me.
1 month earlier, I miss school alot. NOW? Hell, can school don't reopen so fast? I now only started to enjoy. T.T
PS: Getting closer to smile, but I'm still in the border line of tears.
meichyi~
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
second post.
You know you've got it real bad when you see a picture of two people holding each other, and you can almost feel his arms around you...and your heart aches when you remember that you can't have any of it.
Okay, the second post for today. Going to post it as fast as possible before my friends come and find me after their rest. Hell, not going to say much but seriously I don't understand why guys must be that flirt? must be the hard to understand? must be that act cool? must be that whatsoever that makes girls so headache in wondering what you guys wanted to say or wanted to do. I felt so useless to see my bestfriend admit herself as a bitch cause of things happened to her and I cannot even do anything. WHY CAN'T YOU PPL JUST SAY IT OUT AND DON'T THINK THAT EVERYONE BESIDE YOU HAS TO FOLLOW WHATEVER YOU WANT.
Copy 1 sentence from my darlingg - GUYS ARE THE BEST ACTOR IN THE UNIVERSE!
meichyi~
Okay, the second post for today. Going to post it as fast as possible before my friends come and find me after their rest. Hell, not going to say much but seriously I don't understand why guys must be that flirt? must be the hard to understand? must be that act cool? must be that whatsoever that makes girls so headache in wondering what you guys wanted to say or wanted to do. I felt so useless to see my bestfriend admit herself as a bitch cause of things happened to her and I cannot even do anything. WHY CAN'T YOU PPL JUST SAY IT OUT AND DON'T THINK THAT EVERYONE BESIDE YOU HAS TO FOLLOW WHATEVER YOU WANT.
Copy 1 sentence from my darlingg - GUYS ARE THE BEST ACTOR IN THE UNIVERSE!
PS: Guys, just say what you want from us and,
stop thinking that girls will understand you that well.
Not everyone wills give in that much of time and understand you.
meichyi~
2010-12-01
When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you til it seems you could not hold on a minute longer, never give up then for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn.”
Okay, blog.
School is going to reopen in 1 more month time, and I will have to face whether I'm going to ITE or sec5. There will be no more holidays if I'm going to sec5 next years, what a saddening news.
Today, went to BL and had my breakfast with daddy, saw a person using spoon as a knife to eat his breakfast. OMG, daddy was keep laughing until almost the people sitting next to us were all looking at us.
Oh hell, everyone around me is having problems. (Scary thing) and I was totally shocked when there's a primary school friend come and chatted with me last night, we were chatting about everything she's facing recently. Am I a person that gain trust easily from people? LOL, I wonder. Gonna be a best friend of her soon. 1 msg for her is to not to think much, the more you care, the more you will get disappointed. -quoted from a person that said it to me long ago.
Nothing much to blog anyway, not in the mood to do so. Arr, I'm stuck for no reason currently. And I don't know what happened to me that makes me feel such worried abt ____ NOTHING. -________-
MEICHYI~
Okay, blog.
School is going to reopen in 1 more month time, and I will have to face whether I'm going to ITE or sec5. There will be no more holidays if I'm going to sec5 next years, what a saddening news.
Today, went to BL and had my breakfast with daddy, saw a person using spoon as a knife to eat his breakfast. OMG, daddy was keep laughing until almost the people sitting next to us were all looking at us.
Oh hell, everyone around me is having problems. (Scary thing) and I was totally shocked when there's a primary school friend come and chatted with me last night, we were chatting about everything she's facing recently. Am I a person that gain trust easily from people? LOL, I wonder. Gonna be a best friend of her soon. 1 msg for her is to not to think much, the more you care, the more you will get disappointed. -quoted from a person that said it to me long ago.
Nothing much to blog anyway, not in the mood to do so. Arr, I'm stuck for no reason currently. And I don't know what happened to me that makes me feel such worried abt ____ NOTHING. -________-
MEICHYI~
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